All the Love

The silence on this blog is deafening. Seriously, I need to get up to speed.

Well, first off I have an announcement. Many of you have already figured me out but still, here goes – we’re having a baby. A girl. We call her Mini.

I am truly amazed and in awe of the miracle of life. I think this is the closest to something religious I’ve ever been. Feeling the kicks in my belly reminds me every day that I am blessed and have so, so much to be grateful for.

I never knew I could feel this much love for someone I’ve never met, it fills me and makes me burst into random giggles, which I can’t control. I also cry easily and I have truly stopped fretting the small stuff. A couple of weeks ago I was making rhubarb crumble and realized I had far too little rhubarb. Pre-pregnancy this would have made me run out and get more but now I simply shrugged and added what else was in the fridge and could work, meaning blueberries and raspberries. Lo and behold that crumble was a hit. I understand this probably would have been the natural way to solve the problem for most but the perfectionist in me sticks to the recipe. In that way being pregnant is a ball, I’ve never felt this close to my true feelings, relaxed, happy and content and never felt a greater love and compassion for everyone in my life and especially the tiny person hiccuping right now in my belly. I’ve had a super pregnancy and have got nothing to complain about but then I can’t say I’ve loved every second. Some women do and that is great but I confess the weight gain, sleepless nights and sore back have gotten to me at times.

Well, I’m 36.5 weeks along (it’s all gone at lightning speed), which means she could arrive today (yikes!). In a way all this is so scary and some days I must admit I can’t believe we’re soon to be a family and other days pregnancy and the imminent birth of our child (wow, right?) feels like the most natural thing in the world.

To Mini: Baby girl, we love you and simply can’t wait.

- photographed by Andreas wearing H&M MAMA jeans, H&M blouse, Aurelie Bidermann necklace, Bvlgari B.Zero1 gold ring

Comments

[Bobby Leksell]

Hej Felicia,

Ett stort, stort grattis till din "Mini". Såååå roligt att ni skall få barn. Den text du skrivit på din blogg är så otrolgt fin. Du skriver så öppet, självutlämnande och kärleksfullt. Jag önskar dig och din man all lycka med "Mini".
Varma hälsningar
Bobby